I am not alone...

or at least, I will soon not be.

Somehow, I feel like my sense of privacy is about to take a hike in order to find some solitude since soon that is going to be hard to find in my current environment.

Did you follow me on that.

It is leaving: my sense of privacy...
In order to find its own privacy.

Is it allowed to do that?

Yes or no: doesn't matter.
What matters is that it is happening.
The evolution is taking place.
I am evil and unhappy: clearing not handling the change well.
I am not as good as I thought I would be; as I hoped I would be.

If I were my privacy, maybe I would take a hike too.

body in motion

I am only 27.
Okay, well I am actually going to be 28 in less than a month; but still that is only a year away from 27.

The point is I am still young. I am not old. Not decrepit. I am able-bodied.
Sure, I am heavier than I ought to be; but for the most part, my weight hasn't kept me from the things that I want to do.

My goal last year was to get serious about losing weight; to get serious about breaking a life-long emotional bond with food. I am glad to say that I did lose weight. That I ended the year lighter than I started it. That I presently am aware of being hungry and eating for that reason; not because I am sad, bored, crazy, etc...

This year, my goal is to get my body in motion.
I do like to exercise. Well, I like the after-exercise feeling, more than the during-exercise feeling (there's nothing like a good dose of endorphins)....but still, I usually don't shy away from a modest workout. The key there: MODEST workout.

Part of this "body in motion" goal means that I will challenge my body beyond a modest workout.....heavens, no!

Oh, yes- and I have already started...can't you hear my body screaming in agony in the background.....ah, music to my ears...Please do your best to ignore it.

I am.

ah-ha-ha-ha-ha (think powerful laugh)

I am all-conquering and powerful.
I am strong and beautiful.
I am curious and brilliant.

I gave you power and together we twisted through rock.

Thump, Thump goes my heart.
Throb, Throb goes my arm.
But you have been pieced together and are solid.

I have cleaned you out.
Separated good from bad-
You are the better for it;
And I am the wiser.

And on again, until it's done.