Author: Jen Busfield

Plethora of Prayers | September 10, 2018

Help me care today. Because right now, right here, in this moment…I don’t have it in me. I’m worn, torn…profoundly sad and tired; and though I have all these ideas of amazing growth and development – for catching up on all the things I’ve let slip, for cleaning up the piles of poo that have been gathering in my garden – right now, right here, in this moment…I just want to stay under the covers, blanketed from the battles I know are ahead of me today. Help me care about the fight, to have enough good in me to...

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2018 Love Letters: Eleven

This is exactly what I long to tell you… I fell in love with this sign today at the vintage shop, and I wanted to send you the picture I took. I wanted to buy the sign and put it up in our house. I want to sit next to you on the sand and listen to the waves, and be close enough to lean on your shoulder for a moment or two. And maybe whisper how much I love you and this life we’ve built together. — But instead of saying, “I love you,” I would have said,...

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Reflections – Year 37 Day 241

There’s no eloquence to be found here tonight… Just thoughts that came to mind throughout the day. — I lost her. She’s gone. This process has changed us all in profound ways, and I didn’t realize that what we had would be over. Maybe it’s not over-over, but it’s definitely over for now. What we knew is gone. There’s no guarantee it will ever return. It might, but why get our hopes up and stay stuck, stagnant with longing. There’s only pushing through, finding the new normal. But goodness, I miss her. — He was so adorable. This young...

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Don’t Be Angry

Last Friday, instead of meeting with friends as soon as I got into town, I stopped at Kure Beach for some quality time at the place where water meets land… I wasn’t paying attention. I was stuck in my mind, in a loop that I couldn’t get out of…around and around, the same bloody circle of thoughts…a downward spiral into the dark… And while I wasn’t too close to the water, that doesn’t matter when the tide is coming in and crashes against the sand ledge. “Don’t be angry,” it said to me, like a best friend who playfully...

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Wanting It All and Wasting My Effort

Had a really interesting conversation this weekend about wanting it all vs. knowing what you want most… …and going after it hard. I’ve been guilty of claiming the former, thinking it was better; not understanding that it’s distracting, diverting…what’s keeping the most distance between me and my goals. I’m looking at a post-it note I have on the wall in my workspace as I type this… …yea, I got mad typing skills… …not really… It says…I Want It All. And you know what’s even more interesting? I have it posted on top of another thing I wrote down in...

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About Me: Jen Busfield

Mom (son with High Functioning Autism). Small Biz Owner. Author. Traveler. Blogger. Adventurer. Lover. Foodie. Geek. Picture taker. Silly dancer. Music lover. Latina.

2019 Love Letters

I started writing love letters in 2010. I don’t see any reason to stop.  But I did get a late start in 2019. Stay tuned for the latest batch of love letters. Until then…